I can't stand it

Right now I am pissed at Expressen.se's tests/quizzes! I have tried doing three of them and each time it has stopped working near the end of it! It just refuses to load the next question. It's incredibly annoying!!! Fix the sodding site!

Let it hit 'em

Why do people ask "who are you?" on communities and sites like that?

I have a presentation of myself where it states my age, my sexual orientation (on QX, because it's a community for homo-, trans- and bisexual people), where I live, what I seek (in terms of what people do I seek) and I have written a presentation where I shortly inform how my friends probably would describe me as a person, then I've written about some of my interests plus that I am an instructor in BODYCOMBAT, about my music and finally I have also linked to my blog, to my "bilddagboken.se" site and a YouTube-video where I and two friends recorded a not-so-serious commercial movie once. I have about 5-6 pictures of myself and I am a member of about 20 clubs. Enough, right? No. Cause there's also a little feature called "Show Facts" that one can click and there I have stated:

My origin - I'm north European.
Profession - I'm a student, studying culture/media.
Constitution - 169 cm, athletic, hair
Hair - short cut, brown, untidy
Eyes - blue, no glasses
Facial hair - smooth
Headwear - none
Clothing style - jeans, skater/street, sporty, vest
Openness - everybody knows
Faith - atheist
Child/parenting - want to have child/children, don't want child/children
Personality - romantic, curious, faithful, happy, mischievous, impulsive, intellectual, philosophical, dramatic, mean, crazy, honest, caring, cuddly, kind, adventurous, mature, shy, humble and negligent
Music - pop/rock, hard rock, punk/protest/alternative, techno/house/dance
Forms of art - films/video/dvd, photo, drawing/cartoons
Scenes - film festival, concert/music festival
Nightlife - café, restaurant, pride/festival, cruising, amusement park
Like to do - watch tv/film, travel, surf on the internet, games, sport/athletics, pets, create music, create art, shopping, take walks
Interests - fashion, health, technique/computing, history/archeology, media, design/architecture, language

... AND YET .....

People ask: "who are you?".

I'm speechless.

Angry chair

I have spoken about this before but I feel it's time to whine about it again.

As I was on the train on the way home from Uddevalla (had been instructing) a couple of days ago, I sat near two teenagers who had brought a laptop with them. On this laptop, they apparently watched some sitcom and knowing teenagers who have no awareness of the world around them, they had the sound turned on. I try to focus on my music only but it's hard when I keep hearing the god damn added laughters to the show. "HAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA" for every single "funny" line said. Sometimes they had thrown in applauses too. Whoopedidoo!

It's just as annoying as a crying baby.

When are teenagers (I write teenagers cause I have yet to see a grown-up person do it) gonna learn to not share their fucking music and other noises when around people?!

I'm alive

If I have ever felt miserable it's now. I've got the flu complete with sneezing, light headache and feeling weak. As if that wasn't enough, as a result from yesterday's BODYPUMP I have insane soreness in my left bicep (remember what I said about it? the right bicep isn't sore at all!), my triceps, my chest muscles, my shoulders, between my shoulder-blades and in my adductors and quadriceps. I feel so weak I think I'm about to break down! All the sneezing and nose wiping is killing me!

I feel sorry for myself now. :(

On fire

Sodding hell! I just instructed BODYCOMBAT 34 and afterwards, I decided to stay for the BODYPUMP (64). And I always give 101% in BODYCOMBAT.
Wow. I thought the warm-up was hard, I could barely do all of the shoulder presses cause I was getting such lactic acid already. Amazing. Wow, so how would I be able to get through the rest of the class!? I don't know how I did it. I even had to take my own break in the Chest track cause it was so heavy, my shoulders just gave up so I sat up and stretched a bit and then tortured myself for the rest of the track. CRAZY!

And I never thought the back tracks were particularly hard. But I had to eat those thoughts. BODYCOMBAT 34 is extremely heavy on the shoulder blades and back and I was soooo sore during the track.

Then for triceps, I decided I have to use very little weight. I only used 2,5kg+1kg (each side) on the bar and it was almost too easy but I thought that it would get harder when we repeat the dips, trench presses and the other exercise. But no, the track ended suddenly when it was just getting hard and I'm like: "Oookay, what the hell?" and got quite turned off cause I felt I didn't get anything out of it. Biceps was hard though, but strangely I only felt it in my left bicep? I dunno what I did but my left bicep was giving up but my right bicep hardly felt anything.

Lunge-track was quite hard. I like the backwards stepping ones. :P

Shoulder track was a NIIIIIGHTMARE! Never do BODYCOMBAT before BODYPUMP. I guess I don't have to say any more than that.

Abs was WAY too easy and I did the hover instead of the bar roll. Then I used a 10kg plate but I didn't quite feel it.

Anyway, my legs are sooooooore. Worst part is that in order to get to the train station from the gym, I have to walk up like 50 stair-steps and 2 km of upward slopes (okay, not 2 km but it felt like that). I was about to start crying. Hahahaha. BODYCOMBAT 34 has 35% more kicks too, than previous releases so imagine how my legs feel! :D

In the perfect world...

Have you ever wondered if a perfect world, an utopia, would work? Imagine there are no crimes committed, no harm, everybody likes each other, everything is free, no racism, no dictatorships, no homophobia, you can get anyone you want, no war, no starving, no disasters... You get the point. I know it would be impossible but let's pretend it was possible and it happened. How would it feel? Would it actually be so perfect as it seems? I think our minds can't imagine how it would be since it's quite inferior (relatively speaking), just as we can't understand infinity. A perfect world, while being everything we wanted, would be quite bland, I think. There would not be much variation and so on. Of course, if it was all perfect, we wouldn't notice, but since it's not all perfect don't you think we would miss all the discussions, the opinions and heated debates? Wouldn't we miss the intrigues, the excitement of finding a new beloved person after a long search, consoling a dear friend and feeling empathic, et cetera?

I'll say no thanks to a perfect world even though I would like some of the stuff I have mentioned. Like being able to get whoever you want. But who wouldn't want that? ;-)

Remember

Boo.

Long time, no see.

There's really nothing to complain about at the moment (haha) and nothing excessively exciting to tell you. Life moves on like usual, school has opened its doors again and the last couple of months ever are ahead of me now. I will miss these times so much, we've had so much fun during the years and I have gained many new acquaintances and friends. Of course, I will never miss the actual lessons and homework but the people and the fun will be sorely missed.

I just hope I won't lose any of my friends. Sara is going to Germany for some months to pursue one of her dreams (I suppose) and she wouldn't dare to stay in Germany for longer than 9 months, we would miss her so much we would probably start cutting ourselves! I hope the rest of my friends (you know who you are) stays within reasonable reach for as long as possible.

Geesh, I'm speaking as if graduation day was tomorrow. It's still a couple of months away so I'm gonna leave the subject for now.