I feel so uninspiring. I don't feel special. I try so hard to be sweet, kind and loving but it feels like I get nothing in return and it's wrecking me! I guess I am one who needs lots of affection and confirmation. But it seems just like a whole lot of sarcasm is thrown at me with only little sweetness. Constantly some joke about checking out others and other things. It's too much sometimes and it feels like I'm just one to hold on to until a better person is found. :(
I don't think I've ever heard that I look good even though I've said to him many times that I think he does. It can't work like that, you need to both give and take and I wish I wasn't so demanding but I can't help how I feel. If he thinks that I don't look good... well, at least, can he pretend to make me happy? :( I just want him to like me like I like him... He's swept me off my feet and I really, really like him.
I wish that every once in a while I could hear a: "You're so cute!", "You're so sweet!", "I really like you!" or maybe a "Your eyes are so beautiful!". I can't hold on to sarcasm and jokes all the time, I need more than that and I don't think I am the only one in the world who feels like I do about this.
I tried to be really sweet and romantic today but feels like I just got a slap back, compared to what I did. I dedicated a song to him, one of the cutest songs I know, and I got like... a "uh... okay... but I don't like you that much" back. That's what it felt like.
Now I start getting teary eyes... Better stop....
