Tuesday 3 June 2008

Mental mission

I need to overcome one thing. One thing that I guess is silly. Why do I care so much if someone I fancy (in this case, in love with) drinks? It's always been like this. It's not repelling to me but it's rather depressive. I seriously wonder why I bother getting like this - "this" being a bit depressed. I wouldn't care much if I knew the person didn't drink much - say, still got a common sense, able to walk and not doing stupid things. Passing out and vomiting, however, really fuels the depressive feelings.

I think I imagine all the teenybopper parties around here and everywhere else. People just drinking as much as they can. Like I said, it's hardly repelling but it's just me getting worried and depressed.

I need to overcome this. It's bloody stupid and I know it but since I'm such an enemy of alcohol I guess it'll be a hard thing to do. If anybody has any suggestions on how to get over it, shoot! Don't be mad if I don't find your advice useful, though.

I don't want to be a nuisance to him, I want this to last. We have a great thing going on and it would be perfect if I could just learn to let go of my depressive feelings everytime he drinks. Cause really, there's no harm in drinking if you do it with moderation, right?

Then there's the hang-over. A sign of drinking too much, in my opinion. Depressing again. Help me, people! Get my sodding brain to understand to let go of these thoughts! :P